Late-Night Ramblings

It seems like it's been months since I posted anything — but it's only been 10 days. Crazy. Boat-loads of stuff is happening, so do the rundown...

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We begin Plan B on killing Dad's chemo this coming Monday, and we'll do by starting a brand-new trial drug: MLN8237, a novel Aurora A Kinase inhibitor. Less than 3 dozen people have used this drug, so no one is 100% sure how well it will work — but it's a good place to start before going back to more standard regimens. Since MLN8237 works on a more molecular level (by basically confusing DNA at a cellular level), the overall toxicity to the human body should be dramatically less than standard treatments. This is good for Dad, as we don't want his breathing to get any worse. This also means we will be spending a lot more time on the road, getting blood work twice a week — sometimes for 6 hours a day. But of course, the Family would drive to MD Anderson 10 days a week if it means Dad will get better — so no biggie!

Please keep him in your prayers and thoughts. Sometimes we must go through the valley before we stand upon the mountain of God.

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Everybody and their brother is ordering my red Pulse Tap-Tempo with Dots. What's up with that? Not that I'm complaining, of course — but I would have thought metallic blue would be the big seller. I have 6 more to make this weekend, plus Peaches and ios. Thank goodness I don't have a 9 hour a day job any longer, as my effect building is growing more and more.

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I want a saltwater aquarium, but my wife won't let me have one. =(

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Sunday mornings are my favorite mornings, because I'm usually the only person up and outside on our block. I like how, sometimes, when you walk outside on a calm morning, you're just surrounded by this blanket of silence. It's a feeling similar to when a storm or cyclone quickly sucks the wind out of an area, and you feel silence — literally feel it. I love that feeling. That suspension. That absence. It's what I imagine stopping time would be like, and in those moments, I can hear whatever I want, see whatever I want. It's what I imagine Eden was like, oh so many years ago. Suspended — able to hear all, see all, notice all, ignore all. Precisely tuned to everything around you — but able to switch off the noise of Life. It's what I imagine crawling into God's arms is like: supremely calm, insulating, comforting, at peace amid the chaos.

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I've had to turn down 14 photography clients this month, and I hate it. And I don't mean to say I "hate it" because I'm too busy doing other stuff — it's just that I'm unable to take on new work right now, so I hate having to turn them down. Such is life.

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My Lunesta has finally bested the over-caffeination I indulged in, so I'm off to bed only to rise early...

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